Our beautiful daughter Emersyn Paige passed away from SMA Type 1 on April 7th,2009 at the age of 7 months old. This blog is dedicated to her life, legacy and spirit and our journey as a family through grief.





















































Wednesday, August 18, 2010

"An Ugly Pair of Shoes"

I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy and fear. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.

My shoes represent every parents worst nightmare. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in the world. Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think of how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes.Yet, because of the shoes I am a stronger women. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything yet they have also broken me.They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

~ Author Unknown

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