Our beautiful daughter Emersyn Paige passed away from SMA Type 1 on April 7th,2009 at the age of 7 months old. This blog is dedicated to her life, legacy and spirit and our journey as a family through grief.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

12 weeks ago today.......

It has been a while since I've written.......it was 12 weeks ago today that you passed away. It feels like yesterday. Daddy and I were so numbed by shock that we are struggling more now than we were then. There is no solution to grief, it is who we are. It is not wallowing it is fact. How can we ever say we have accepted that our daughter has died?? No one could, it is simply not in the heart of a parent to ever feel resolved with their childs death. Missing you cannot even come close to describing the void we feel. Constantly searching for answers as to "why us" and "why you". We know these questions will remain a mystery until we see you again. I have to believe there is a meaning, a purpose and a greater power to all of this. Today I pray for the strength to make it through each day without you and most of all I pray that you are safe, happy and full of love and life where ever you are.Miss you & love you my beautiful daughter,
Love Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A Trail in Emersyn's Honour for Fathers Day....

Dear Daddy,I had a trail in Oakville dedicated to you for your special day today. It's called the "Emersyn Paige Klomp Trail" and it is on the corner of Sixth Line and Glenashton right in our neighbourhood. There are a bunch of signs along the trail with my name on them so you won't miss it! This is the trail that you and mommy would walk on with me all the time. It is also the trail that you took me on the week before I got my wings when you lifted me out of my stroller and walked me down to the pond to see the baby ducks. You are my hero, my number one dancing partner, bath giver, car ride driver, story teller and overall best dad ever. I love you, I miss you and I am with you today and always. Happy Father's Day I hope you have lots of peaceful runs through my trail and know I am right there with you every step of the way.Love your girl,
Emersyn xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

The Dragonfly Story ~ Author Unknown

The Dragonfly StoryDown below the surface of a quiet pond lived a little colony ofWater bugs. They were a happy colony, living far away from thesun. For many months they were very busy, scurrying over thesoft mud on the bottom of the pond. They did notice that everyonce in awhile one of their colony seemed to lose interest ingoing about. Clinging to the stem of a pond lily it graduallymoved out of sight and was seen no more.“Look!” said one of the water bugs to another. “One of ourcolony is climbing up the lily stalk. Where do you think she isgoing?” Up, up, up it slowly went. Even as they watched, thewater bug disappeared from sight. Its friends waited andwaited but it didn’t return.“That’s funny!” said one water bug to another. “Wasn’t she happy here?” asked a second. “Where do you suppose shewent?” wondered a third.No one had an answer. They were greatly puzzled. Finally oneof the water bugs, a leader in the colony, gathered its friendstogether. “I have an idea. The next one of us who climbs up thelily stalk must promise to come back and tell us where he orshe went and why.”“We promise”, they said solemnly.One spring day, not long after, the very water bug who hadsuggested the plan found himself climbing up the lily stalk. Up,up, up, he went. Before he knew what was happening, he hadbroken through the surface of the water and fallen onto thebroad, green lily pad above.When he awoke, he looked about with surprise. He couldn'tbelieve what he saw. A startling change had come to his oldbody. His movement revealed four silver wings and a long tail.Even as he struggled, he felt an impulse to move his wings. Thewarmth of the sun soon dried the moisture from the new body.He moved his wings again and suddenly found himself upabove the water. He had become a dragonfly!Swooping and dipping in great curves, he flew through the air.He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere. The new dragonflylighted happily on a lily pad to rest. Then it was that hechanced to look below to the bottom of the pond. Why, he wasright above his old friends, the water bugs! There they werescurrying around, just as he had been doing some time before.The dragonfly remembered the promise: “the next one of uswho climbs up the lily stalk will come back and tell where he orshe went and why.” Without thinking, the dragonfly darteddown. Suddenly he hit the surface of the water and bouncedaway. Now that he was a dragonfly, he could no longer go intothe water.“I can’t return!” he said in dismay. “At least, I tried. But I can’tkeep my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the waterbugs would know me in my new body. I guess I’ll just have towait until they become dragonflies too. Then they’ll understandwhat has happened to me, and where I went.”And the dragonfly winged off happily into its wonderful newworld of sun and air.~Author Unknown